When you have the power it shows, When you are happy it shows, When you are sad it shows, but what about when you are really really sad, what then? I am not sure but I just don't know how to show.
Today marks the zenith of depths to my abnormal life. In an utterly bizarre manner I found out that my laptop battery has drained out completely and again it has come to a time where I might have to replace the battery altogether. That would mean shelling out of another 5000 bucks. There are so many things running in my mind and first and foremost thing is "Why me?". Was I duped? Was it how the HP batteries are meant to be. Last exactly a year before it goes pfff. I wouldn't mind using the laptop with the power plugged in. It is just that it starts getting heated up so unbearably hot, one can as well use it fry omelets.
Every thing I have touched upon have turned to dust. Not glorious kinda way but literally my choices of things have started hurting me big time. Right from my annual specs (spent 12k in 4 years), a worthless bike, a wonderful lost camera, a non stop pressure cooker laptop to my worthless job. Yes, I just don't get tired saying it - a worthless job. I guess I can proudly I am one of those wierdos working for a company which pays less than the formal company. What kind of incentive is that?
In all these aspects there is always the longing of better one, never satisfied with the one I have. IF only I could have tested and bought Unicorn, If only I didn't lose my camera, If only I could have regained my specs, If only I could have bought any damn laptop like Dell, Lenovo or anything other than HP, if only I could have stuck a little longer at Satyam, IF...IF..
The only two good remaining assets for me are my two precious hard disks and one lovely pristine IPod running its glorious 4th year. Hope they don't meet any bad fate. Fingers crossed.
Actually Just as I read this , i am feeling good. Some damn post for otherwise useless life with no goddamn goal to look at or the zeal to work at it..Depressing really..Time for DORK.
