Dear Baby - 10

Dearest bangaru konda

Your Amma's brain is in heightened senses  and now that she knows what we have been up to. Here I was casually clicking the pics and the house and she was quick to shout "This is for the blog isn't it?". It was like being caught red-handed while trying to eat that food that was not meant to be eaten until pooja is done. Putting on a blank face I said "Nope".

Psst, It really is for this post. To borrow the oft-repeated line, 'its time to add some color to this post'. Let's start with some of the baby photos I was telling you about that are pasted in the bedroom.

1. Facing the bed

2. Leftside of the bed

The one that she liked of all is the cute girl photo in the pic (1) with a bowling hat over her head. I hope this is having good affect on her. 

Here is the pic of her first weekend walking outing in the Botanical Garden that we did couple of weeks back

3. Momma during the walks

A selfie of mom and me to follow- 

Last couple of days one thought is occupying her mind - the feeling that she isn't able to feel the movements inside the stomach. I told her to be patient as doctor has clearly said it would be take around 2-3 weeks to start getting the motions.

Today we have gone for one round of walking - almost 5 rounds in the Gautami Park. Its a very nice park, one of the first parks where I have begun my jogging. I will post some links about that. I used to do about 10-12 rounds every day for almost 5-6 months and that led to my weight coming down by almost 9kg's. It has almost reached the same levels now. Sigh. For some reason every post is boiling down to my weight. Anyways like last time, today also we saw so many mothers and fathers in the park playing standing with their kids and helping them play. There were two fathers doing see-saw with their kids on one side and they sitting on the other side. Few kids playing around with small football and one among them was an adorable tiny tot, barely able to walk slowly walking around. It was lovely feeling doing all the rounds.

Coming to the another main objective of the post - today she felt her first craving. Before going for her lazy weekend afternoon bath today, she called me and said she wanted badly to eat Black Forest pastry. Your Dadi too had some work along the way. Dadi got ready and we both started out. I went to the Cakes and More and luckily for us a fresh Blackforest cake was getting baked. I ordered 4 pieces and brought them home. 

Dear Baby - 9

Hello my sweet munchkin

On Monday this week I revealed to Amma about our secret exchanges. Prior to this I published all the drafts and finally sent a mail to her. As expected she was pleasantly surprised and waterworks were in full flow. I didn't really see it but she mailed back saying she couldn't control her joyful tears.

She was extremely happy and overjoyed. I prodded her to write one herself for you but she says since I write better, I should continue. Don't worry, one day I will get her to write for you. So update update update -

We have gone for the doc checkup and this time it was a pretty short one. I for one was having dizzy feeling and felt kinda out of place sitting there as my mind was totally consumed by my work at office. I realize on retrospect this isn't a good thing. I blame it mostly on my jogging routine that has stopped. For almost two weeks now I haven't been going. Work at office has spiked up and am have become quite lazy to get up. Also sadly I have put on weight and my pants too have become tight. Ain't a good sign.

Well, I got completely sidetracked right? So back to the doctor visit. Firstly Dr.Evita checked the sugar level report and confirmed that the readings were good, the sugar being under control, and cautioned her to be little careful in consuming sugary foods. She went on to say in 3-4 weeks time Amma would start feeling you inside much more prominently, indicating your growth and your activities inside the stomach. The time to start walking or exercising has come and your Amma needs to do it at an hour per day at least 4 times a week. I guess you can say this week its going to be a miss as she is feeling 'very tired' both in the morning and evening. I quoted it because on or off pregnancy your Amma isn't much interested in exercising, even walks for that matter. So I have to push her to do it. With work at high flow this week, I am not able to keep that extra effort. Next week I promise to take you both to a nice walk as prescribed. She also suggested pre-natal yoga sessions. I would need to speak with some folks to understand how useful or needful it is. I would be calling Nikhil's mom to find out. I remember Amma mentioning something about it quite early in the pregnancy that she would need to do some yoga etc. She does have interest, need to know the need.

 Amma had list of questions to ask such as Is it safe to continue driving? Yes, pefectly safe. What kind of food precautions to take? Please consult our expert dietitians. I felt really dizzy once, could it be because of fluctuating hormones during pregnancy etc. Don't remember her answer. I am having slight back pain of late, is this expected? Please consult our massage therapists.

Suffice it to say Fernandez is a multi-specialty hospital and they have enough branches for each problem. It felt like a unabashed advertising for all the services much like how insurance agents lure you to various schemes. We didn't say anything and as per what she advised have taken appointments for each. This wednesday was supposed to be session with dietitians, didn't happen. One good suggestion though was to have appointment with endocrinoligist, to have recheck on thyroid level. This is scheduled for Saturday evening time. This we both felt is very much necessary.

It isn't that we are very cynical about doctors but these aren't the usual people that Amma's friends had been to and not very much needed. I for one to get some assurance that we are on right path would need to start reading about things that matter and be armed with - Baby books. All about pregnancy I mean. It's fifth month running and am yet to do any basic homework. All I feel is being in shoes of Seth Rogen in Knocked Up where he is so overwhelmed that he buys and reads up the baby books.

I need to get my stuff right. I promise you by the next time I post I will be better armed. One more thing, we also had some discussions on Srimantham and it is still undecided where to have it. Updates soon to come.

With kisses and hugs,
Nanna..

Dear Baby - About Amma

Hello my sweetie pie,

Today I want to dedicate this post to your Amma and tell you why my love for her keeps increasing year on year.

A bit of nostalgia to start with -
Here is what I wrote about her when we created a wedsite to announce our wedding invite to all our colleagues and friends. -

"How did you meet her?"

"What is she Like"

"Is she compatible"

"Tell us more man. How did this all happen?"

All these questions and more would be answered with this "short, crisp, and make it small" description.i (as instructed - ekkuva sodi rayaku)

Writing about her reminds me of the days when Testimonials were of great craze. Samhitha a.k.a Sammu, born and brought up in Hyderabad is a pucca Hyderabadi. I met her over a plate of Idli's at Chutney's. Unlike the regular family gathering set-up, we actually had a sweet date, the events of which we still remember as if it has happened yseterday - the talks we had, the opinions we framed and how lucky we are to have eachother. It was a really special moment with some unforgettable memories that will stay on with us.

She is also known by so many names that it would take a seperate post for that - Bips for one (spot on ain't it?), Fattu and so on but the name she loves and the one most call her by is Sammu. She just hates people calling her Bhabhi/Vadina (getting the hint?). Right from schooling to her job she has been around the Begumpet/Himayat Nagar area and she knows every nook and corner round there. With her office now moved to Hi-Tech city her horizons expanded a lot more. She is a great foodie and loves trying new restaurants, new dishes and new joints. A huge Mahesh Babu fan almost falling just short of searching for guy by the name Mahesh to wed with(thank God for that!). The first thing that strikes to anyone is her beautiful smile. She has got the cutest smile that stretches from ear to ear - a full fledged heartful smile which can easily melt anyone's heart. Quite frankly, that's what I love about her the most. She easily gets along with anyone and has got amazing set of friends. She believes in enjoying each moment as it comes, highly expressive and is so much fun to be with. Music is her passion. She is a veteran singer herself and has given performances at various musical concerts. Classical singing is her forte but she has the ability to mould her voice to suit any song and I just stare in awe and wonder everytime I watch her sing. It gets me lost in trance and I feel very special to have her in my life.

I have had one of the best moments in my life ever since we got hitched. I have changed myself over and over again, became more committed in managing my work and life balance, set new goals, lost good enough weight and enjoying every bit of it. She inspires me to become a better person every day with her positive attitude towards life. I just can't wait to get married and begin the next exciting journey of my life.

Suffice it to say, the journey has been one hellava ride so far. Sometimes she complains I don't write much about our lives or our adventures. It's true for some extent. This isn't a conscious decision. It's just a writer's block. I keep hitting that imaginary wall in recurrent interval. As to the subject of us, I don't know if our small fights and make-ups are worth letting the world know.

Amma is one of the most dedicated wives and if there is a competition for cleanliness and maintenance, she would ace it. She takes care of the house as if it were a baby. Methodically every she sets aside a routine to cleanse all the items in the house by dusting it. Starting from drawing room, dining room to bedroom she takes up a cleaning cloth and wipes things like sofas, T.V, showcase items, pictures hanging on the wall. She does it with such precision and such sincerity, every single day, never complaining never giving up. Even with you in her stomach, she is relentless in her pursuit of cleaning. Trust me I know it is one of the hardest things to do - maintaining punctuality and interest. I am sure another month or two, she wouldn't be able to do all these things. I would like to assure her that I am there to take up this work, for which I first should be able to get my routine properly organized.

Aside from that she is an open book. She doesn't hide her emotions behind a veiled mask and speaks her mind out. This sometimes comes out like a angry tirade or sometimes a non-committal sentence. This is a very important trait that I love about her. Some people just hide the feelings and by keeping it inside themselves let it manifest into a bigger problem. Before you know it, they will start pointing mistakes for every single thing you do. Your Amma though lets it out, we discuss about it, weigh the outcomes and stick to it. Of course it is important to note that she is little short-tempered. But as much angry she can become, within few moments, give or take 30 - 60 minutes she calms down, and comes back to you with twice the love.

Let's say this is part -I. Many more parts to come.

With Love..
Nanna.

Dear Baby - 8

Hello bangaru..

Consider this a cheat post. I know I told last post was supposed to be the last chuppa rustam post. I couldn't help holding one more back.

Couple of days ago your Amma, when about to sleep made some sad cute face. On inquiry she told me what if we are going to have a boy and so far we had mentally prepared for girl. Her concern being we should also be prepared for boy. For a girl the name is 'Maya'. Its a name I have fell in love with for some reason and both of us liked it. We started the exercise for boy's name. So far we have narrowed our names to - Prithivi. Only one for now.

One important update too. Your Amma prepared on her own Chettinad Chicken Curry today with so much love and attention, I loved every bit of it.

With Love..
Muaahhh
Nanna..

Dear Baby - 7

Dearest Sweetie pie,

You are in your 16th month now and here are the quick updates. Radha atha has brought one nice beautiful tiny red woolen knitted shoes the size of our fingers yesterday. One of the first ever gift to you, in advance. We also got talking about how to go about Sreemantham function that needs to be organized during your Amma's 5th month. You know about how many people should be invited, should it be at home or hotel etc. Atha was of the opinion to make it very good function by arranging it in a nice hotel.

Amma and I too had a talk on the same subject the day before. She opined that she wanted it to be at home with most of her cousins present, to which I agreed. Anyways good number of days are left, let's see how it goes.

One of the things we started from last week is a daily one hour hearing of nice mellifluous music. It is believed that starting the day with such nice music in background will instill calmness and have a nice effect on your growth. For this first I have downloaded some songs mentioned in the site - BabyCenter Garbha Sanskar music. I have also ordered the CD -Garb Sanskar from Flipkart which has voice over of Amitabh Bachan. This has been going on for that past week.

I haven't told you the best part yet. Your Amma after some amount of persuasion has agreed to sing one nice devotional raga before she we hit the bed. You wouldn't believe but I wanted to start this exercise for such a long time. I love hearing her sing and I can keep listening to it forever. She did song for few days then but it didn't continue for long. This time I am sure she would be consistent and continue her singing spree till you come out open and hear it for yourself.

Looks like this chuppa rustam acts we have been doing will be ending soon. This may be the last such post as I am planning to show it your Amma this 21st April.

With Love,
Nanna..

Dear Baby - 6

Dearest munchkin,

The last Sunday we had one of the scans again (nuchal scan) and for the first time we got to see you in whole. Your whole body was fully formed - the hands, the head, the legs, the nose. You were resembling your brother Ram. For a while I felt I was looking at one of those pretty creatures in Princess Mononoke.
Small tiny wholly white creatures with round head and empty eye sockets. I don't mean ghost kind of way but cute.

It was such a huge emotional feeling for me to see you. I was almost close to tears and I can't express the overwhelming feeling of love I was feeling for you. We also got to hear your heartbeat, blood flow and the lab technician told us you were growing quite fast for a 11 week old and that we can expect the delivery to be two weeks earlier than actual expected date of delivery.

The way she told us about this we weren't sure if she was happy about it or if it was a caution. So we had to ask her again if that's unusual to which she, thankfully, confirmed it wasn't.

Amma too was in surprised mood. In the scan we could see you moving both your hands and feet and making some movements but Amma wasn't feeling it in her. Few more months and I think she would start feeling you every bit.

There were lot of comedy of errors too on that day. Around 9:30 Amma had her breakfast and the technician had told us that we had to wait 2 hours and give blood again. That would be around 11:30. We started the day by first giving blood sample, had nice packed breakfast (chapatis for me, pongal for Amma) in the hospital, got the scan done. All this got completed by around 10:20. We had an hour to kill and also the folks there wanted to have our first scan reports to ascertain the exact date of delivery. We had to go back to our house. It was sweltering hot on that day and as we neared the botanical gardens, we made a stop near the bondam seller, and had one each.

Reaching home I lay flat on the bed while Amma was on the phone with Dadi and Ammamma telling them about day's proceedings. After resting for about 20-25 mintue and picking up the reports we went back to the hospital. We entered the lab to give blood. While strap was being put on the arm of your Amma, the technician casually asked when we had last eaten, what we ate, did we have anything in the middle etc. His eyes flared up when we mentioned we had coconut water on our way home. He wasn't happy to hear that and told us cocunt water contains sugar and that would impact results and kind of blamed us for having missed that part. He went on to add we may need to wait another 2 hours before he takes the blood sample. It was stupid really and it was definitely his fault. Before I could retort, Amma gave it back proper telling him he didn't say anything about not drinking in the interim time and blasted him to let at least others patients know about it. Anyway on re-calculating the break time we realized we had to wait for another 1 hour.

Outside the lab, the heat was on and Amma scolded me for making her drink coconut water and that I should have been more thoughtful, more diligent and why is it that everytime I cause such trouble with consistency. I didn't argue much. Sometimes just hearing her out is enough. She will only understand what really went wrong and would come back to me. So all in all we finished our day around 12:30, a hour late than anticipated and got back home.

An eventful day nonetheless and with that first glimpse of you, my eagerness to see you has multiplied.

With Love,
Nanna..

Dear Baby - 5

Dearest bangaru konda

Your Nanna is becoming bit lazy. This was a post which had to be posted yesterday but got delayed by a day. Before it gets any more late I wanted to quickly write this off.

As I type this, I am hearing a series of sounds coming from somewhere near to our house where a mother is reciting names and relations such as "Nannnaaa..ammmaaa...." in a tuneful repetition. Its really sweet to hear and I will with full certainty teach you the same. The main topic for today is the surprise that we pulled off on your Amma.

Your Amma had taken off for 3 days over a weekend starting last Friday to this week's Tuesday and had gone off to Ammamma's place for nice rest. Dadi and I packed our bags for weekend and went to Guntur to spend some time with your chutku brother Ram. This was the only time we can spend with him as he and Gautami were planning to go to Vempalli. We had wonderous time with, shook quite a leg, heard him make lot of complaints, praises all in his baby language. Will post some pics someday.

Meanwhile Jeijayya had other plans. He had ordered some nice baby photo prints that can be stuck on the walls. I was planning to do the same once I was back to Hyderabad but as you know Jeijayya plans really far ahead. I was very happy with the initial two prints that came. I then selected 3 more from a collection of 20 which were brought the next day to the house i.e. on Sunday.

I wanted to maintain this as surprise and never once told Amma after I came back. The Monday was spent talking with her on phone and going on usual with the day's chores. In the evening though Dadi kind of tricked me saying he had told Amma all about the posters. I was bit disappointed but still I maintained the facade the next day too when I spoke to your Amma and made no mention of posters. Tuesday night, I stuck all the posters in the bedroom.

Dadi too was fully excited and she came in to sneak a peek as she too didn't have time to see them at Guntur. She was ecstatic and happy on seeing them. She also made observation that there were only 2 boys in the posters and the rest all were girls and wondered what would you think if it's not balanced well. As you know we very much want you to be the cutest sweetest girl of all and are very much hoping it would be girl. A name too is decided and that would be Maya. For boy it's still on the lookout.

On Wednesday unbenowkn to me your Amma on her way back from Ammamma's house had first stopped by at the house in the morning and then had gone to office. Over phone that day as part of our daily morning talk's she was bit livid with the state of things. You know the usual "the dining table was so messy","so much dust near kitchen, did you even once dust the bed cover( I did daily), " etc. She is a cleanliness freak that your Dadi and I can never hope to be.

Through all the conversations, I was hoping she would say something about the posters in the room but she didn't. She made it clear that she had gone inside the room to drop the bag. I too didn't prod and somehow understanding sunk in that Dadi may not have told her about it either.

That excitement of surprise made my rest of the day swoosh by. I wrapped up my work as fast as I could (7:00 P.M.!) and rushed home. She gave a nice warm hug and was all praise for the posters. She loved them all. Whenever we enter the room now it gives such a fuzzy feeling and it increases our anticipation of your arrival. In the night however your Amma had a very strange question to ask "Why aren't you loving me as much as you were loving me before? It decreased a bit" to which I have no idea what to reply. Poor thing she is as much a baby as you are and one of the best mums ever.

That's all for now..more on next post..

With lots of kisses and cuddles,
Nanna..

Dear Baby - 4

Dear cutest munchkin,

Yesterday we had our appointment with new doctor Dr.Evita Fernandez at the Fernandez Hospital which is where we would be going regularly henceforth. She is a nice 60 year old charming lady with a rough anglo accent, bob cut hair and impeccably dressed.

The branch we went to at Jubilee Hills is only for out-patient and the delivery would be at its another branch near Abids. Whenever we speak of hospitals the images that pop out are people with white lab coats moving around the corridors, dysentry smell all around but this one is very different. It has Jazz music playing in the background which is very soothing to listen to and also helps in diverting your thoughts to nothingness giving it a tranquil atmosphere. As we went in, your Amma's weight was checked before being escorted to the right room where doctor-in charge Dr.Chaitanya (female) noted down all the primary details of the tests we took at Vijaya Diagnostics. Everything seemed good until Evita came in and spotted a very important detail.

She declared the gospel truth that "Your Amma is the sweetest person of all, in fact, too sweet". Your Amma was charmed and blush was visible on her face. Then she continued saying the "too sweet" factor is to be brought down. Thing is her glucose levels are bit higher than normal which is what the "sweetness" she was referring to. She advised her to first and foremost throwaway the Chocolate Horlicks and substitute with either buttermilk, green tea or actual tea (minus sugar), cut down on the white rice and take brown rice instead, no more potatoes. We were told to get glucose checked up again in 10 day's time for which we made the appointment.

Apart from this everything was perfect and your Amma and I are pleased with this doctor as well.
Going back to the last post, we are yet to buy the Bhajans as your Amma is now clueless on what to buy exactly. I will be prodding her further this week and hopefully you will have nice music to hear in your sleep.

With Love,
Nanna

Dear Baby - 3

Hello my sweet little angel,

Yesterday your Amma had felt the first vibration of you in her stomach. Watching bhajans of Maha Siva ratri celebrations at Bangalore Art of Living ashram with Guruji heading the proceedings on Bakti channel yesterday, she said she could sense some movements in her stomach and swears she could sense vibrations within. With heightened excitement, when she came to bed she told me how great it felt.

Today we have decided to get some nice bhajans ordered, which can be played in the morning times. Another good news is that we have also talked to prospective cook who would be cooking for us this coming March 2nd on wards. Your Dadima and Amma have talked about what the job would entail, what kind of cooking we would be needing, the timings, the works and finally the fees.

Everything is set. Your Amma would then have much needed rest and time to focus on you and lessen the stress. You may not know now baby but trust me everyday job of cooking puts a bit of pressure every day on mind as it keeps Amma busy in planning what to be done for the morning, lunch, dinner and cycle continues. Thankfully this would be taken care of post March.

With Love,
Yours Ever Loving Nanna

Dear Baby - 2

Dear Baby,

Yesterday was one of the most important days of our life. It was the first time we saw you when your mom got her first scan done and our it was an overwhelming feeling of joy for us. We saw your hearbeat and your whole form not bigger than length of my finger. It also gave us great relief and heave of sigh for the reasons explained below.

Just a day before we had a meet up with Dr.Shobha, a well known close family doctor and a close associate of Lakshmi Pedamma. Speaking with doctor on phone earlier day, we have fixed the appointment around 10:30 A.M at her home in Banjara Hills. Finding the address proved to a problem thanks to bizarre numbering system. Once we were inside, we saw that doctor was in hurry as she got one more urgent appointment but she agreed to have a quick once over. She prescribed some tests that needs to be done first hand before she can give more prognosis. Then came the bombshell. She expressed bit of shock and told in no uncertain terms that we had come bit late and should have been more cautious. Your mom has hyper-thyroid and it seems for such patients, checkup is best recommended as soon as pregnancy is detected. When everything was done and we were about to leave she asked to us to meet up again on coming Monday along with the reports.

It was time to go to office and was the beginning of the waterworks for the day. Your mom broke down and was crying profusely. Hearing that we have delayed the consultation and we should have come much early, it hurt her really bad with feeling of extreme guilt and sadness. Your avva tried to pacify her but didn't really quell the fears. All the way to her office she remained inconsolable. I even tried to reach her through phone after I reached but she wasn't willing to lend a ear. I phoned mom and asked her to get consult the our family's best trusted doctor of all - Lakshmi Pedamma herself to get the opinion. It was your Jaijayya who ōgot to her first by calling at the hospital and got back to me telling me that everything is fine, the fears were highly unwarranted. Thing is your mom has around 25mcg dosage, which, is a negligible amount and it is only at higher levels that it may pose problem for baby. Secondly, since she has been regularly having regular dosage everyday and no need of panic. On top of all this, your Jaijayya also got second opinion to validate the findings and as they say "all is well".

That brings us to the closure of "heaving a sigh of relief" and as they say "all is well". The silver lining of all the above is that we decided to break the omerta and spread the news of joy, the news that your mom is pregnant. It spread like fire and congratulatory messages started pouring in. Please note this is still in the closed boundary of family and yet to spread to friends.

Resolutions, Resolves and Targets -
Gautam bava (I actually don't know what his actual relation is) rightly said yesterday, the day father gets in touch with reality of owning the baby, is when he holds the baby in the hands. I could not have put it better. The only thoughts running in my mind are -

1. To bit fit and healthy - as I told before I started jogging everyday.
2. To take very good care of your mom - to this I would say I may have met half way mark.

Your avva was at Guntur for almost 3 weeks starting Feb 1st to Feb 20th. This gave me the ample opportunity to showcase and share responsibility and lessen the work for your mom. Now that all the days have passed I can say I lent helping hand in cutting vegetables and that's it. Your Ammamma was very helpful and provided us with batters of idli & dosa, different chutneys, different kinds of dry fruits, methi parathas, chapatis and what not. Enough to give some days of respite to your mom. Fruits were regular in the menu.

More to follow..

Lovingly,
Nanna

Dear Baby

Dear Baby

3rd February, 2014 - the day you were first detected. For over a week ending January, ever since your mom started missing the dates, the anxiety started growing steadily. First it was 2 days delay, an acceptable one. Then a day more led to slight worry. Another 2 days, mom was quite certain but we both decided not to go for pregnancy test until Ramashrith namakarnam was over.

Prat, Gautami had to come to India along with their cutest 3-month baby Ramashrith on 28th Jan. The next three days were quite busiest for both of us. I had taken leave for 3 days till 31st and your mom took a single day off. The whole of 29th was spent in shopping for Gautami's clothes. We roamed good number of shops till Gautami was satisfied. The next two days were the time I realized what a beautiful thing baby is.

Anyway after we came back from Gandi all the thoughts in my office were about the impending pregnancy test. I went early in a hope to catch up home early but it was not to be. Had a call at 7, then another pending task after which I finally reached home by 8:30 in the night. I was thinking your mom would have got the results by the time I reach. In actual though she was as tensed as I was and she wanted to check with me being there. She had bought only one pregnancy test kit and with my movie knowledge that didn't sound right. I saw good number of films where main pratogonist holds at least 4-5 kits in their hands for testing. It didn't sound right that there was only one. Immediately after dinner I rushed out of the house, went to the nearest drug store and brought 3 additional kits.

When I reached home, there she was your mom eyes fully moist, hugging me and telling me the sweetest news of my life that she tested positive. Two lines that's all it takes. Frankly it took some time for the news to sink in and the more and more I thought about it, happiness started swelling within.

Holding on to small tiny body, the little fingers, tiniest feet everything about Aashrith I loved it. Your Mom and I were in agreement to hold family planning till 2 years which is exactly how this has turned out to be. I couldn't have hoped for a better timing.

For few days since last week my thoughts were only on one thing, I want to be a dad you would be proud of. I want to be a dad with whom you would want to play all day long, I want to be a dad who is focused, determined, sincere and hard-working, healthy.

One of the first steps to achieve this was to restart my jogging routine which I am proud to say I did. There are many more such small goals which I want to take step by step and will keep you updated over the weeks.

Until then this post would be our little secret, which I haven't even shared with your mom.

With loads of love,
Nanna