I am so bloody distracted to write that even though I had my Live writer open for about last 20 minutes I was busy browsing through the Versailles website figuring out the rates for weekends.
Almost 3 months have passed since we have set foot here and the two things that I promised myself I would achieve is – Lose Weight by exercising daily, Brush Twice. I have achieved the latter but the former I still have to experience. What is it about weight that can lift any person’s mood from sad to happiness to sad again? Why is it that weight has become such obsessive thing to be judged and compared with? Just to think about the days when I can where the real good T-shirts I want without the XL tag or seeing myself amongst the fit and healthy folks here and get that warm fuzzy feeling that says ‘Yes, meine kar dikaya,’ to all my nay sayers.
As everyday my sleep hovers around 2 or 3 I wonder if I would ever achieve this going forward. So this constant state of excitement, guilt, and finally resentment is going to stay. Even though I want to say from Monday, I would get up in the morning, try to go to Parc De Luxembourg or go up and down the stairs 3 times to start with, I know this would be for short. I want to enjoy that.
One of the greatest appeals of being slim and trim is that, as Balodi bhai has put it, if you are slim and fit nobody cares even if you are bald. The body just takes care of your entire glam factor. Strangely the thing that’s pricking mind all throughout has been the thought of marriage. I want to be the most perfect eligible bachelor around and not some fat guy with huge tummy looking like 30 poking around for girls.
Ironically though as much as I am eager to be fit for bride hunting, the thought of marriage is scaring me. Let me just dedicate that post for later bits. But for now, though this conflict exist in my mind I am more than willing to accede just for now that I want to be fit in the market.
One good thing is I already see some improvement in myself as I must have definitely dropped 3 Kg’s at least. My stomach is lot more slimmer. The sad thing is this is not natural and am sure a months stay back home would get these kilos back where they belong in jiffy. These changes should always happen with a plan, wherein there is always a space for exercise come what may, rain or shine. Any goddamn exercise that involves burning of calories.
Thoughts to boost me up - I no longer feel exhausted climbing the 4 floors of my stairs and I definitely am enjoying walking around streets of Paris than taking Metros.
Fingers tightly crossed for my next post on weight or exercise. Anu, if at all you really read this anytime, understand some day very soon without bloating about and keeping it under wraps, I would show you how disciplined I can really be and prove to me, myself and me alone that living healthy and fit is the best way to live.
JAI HO!
