Of late I really started enjoying kosmic column of Economic Times. The 5 minutes of reading it puts me into a state of nirvana and I can feel the abundant positive energy flowing within. The column is mainly about 'you' and what 'you' can accomplish. In various ways it stresses the point that one should be in control of themselves, be it emotionally, physically or metaphysicaly. Then there is the fact that one should stop cribbing and start acting. The list goes on.
Apart from all this there is one essential thing that actually hooked me to it was, on one of the days, it explained about the persons who, even after finding the time they need, the resourses they crave for, are not willing to act upon simply because they do not want to. This ,it goes on to reason, is simply because those people actually are clueless when they realise suddenly they are not having anything to blame on. Its like one of those monster.com ads where a chef suddenly finds himself in a barber shop - a complete mismatch of reality and the dream.
Today, I can say I am one such unlucky guy who have succumbed to it. The last few weeks or perhaps months, I have had opportunities in plenty to act up on simple basic rule of reading one hour per day. I didn't. I just whiled away time watching movies, surfing net, reading blogs, what not. On the other hand the amount of advices I give and try to impress upon others like me is nothing short of sermon. I am nothing but a pathetic hypocrite and a loser who does not have any right to judge others until and unless I clean my dirty linen myself.
Until then I will not PREACH while I don't PRACTISE...
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Monday, July 05, 2010
06-Jul-2010 - The Beginning
I mark this day as the beginning of series of blog posts something akin to diary entry of the new life that's about to begin. A life where all the thoughts are going to be put into action (hopefully).
Goals -
1. Learning Analysis Services
2. Practising on LINQ for C#
3. Gymming in the morning
4. Less Surfing, more working
5. Clean up the damn room
6. No oil, no chicken,no rice
That's good enough. Will update the score in the night... :)
Update - (4), (6)
Score - 2
Goals -
1. Learning Analysis Services
2. Practising on LINQ for C#
3. Gymming in the morning
4. Less Surfing, more working
5. Clean up the damn room
6. No oil, no chicken,no rice
That's good enough. Will update the score in the night... :)
Update - (4), (6)
Score - 2
Friday, July 02, 2010
Tit For Tat...
Talking to Nikhil today after he kept on repeatedly 'item' after every sentence it reminded me yet again of how something you do/say effects you in reverse. Its a very good lesson really. Quite long ago I had a similar experience with Nikmo.
We were coming from Lakdika pul to Madhapur and as sometimes I do very irritating to others, I hit him on the thigh. Just like that. And that's when he hit me back doubly hard just to get the point straight across - its not funny. He was actually in a very bad mood that day, and top of that, we had a argument about this too and was decided i would do no more. Anyways he won't be there for long to repeat it. Strangely that's what my heart thinks and nothing more about me not repeating it.
I guess time has come for another change in me i.e. not to call 'item' to anyone repeatedly that is. Its really really irritating..
Thanks Niks..- I dedicate this post to you..
We were coming from Lakdika pul to Madhapur and as sometimes I do very irritating to others, I hit him on the thigh. Just like that. And that's when he hit me back doubly hard just to get the point straight across - its not funny. He was actually in a very bad mood that day, and top of that, we had a argument about this too and was decided i would do no more. Anyways he won't be there for long to repeat it. Strangely that's what my heart thinks and nothing more about me not repeating it.
I guess time has come for another change in me i.e. not to call 'item' to anyone repeatedly that is. Its really really irritating..
Thanks Niks..- I dedicate this post to you..
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Not so happy moments-in memory of my lappie..
When you have the power it shows, When you are happy it shows, When you are sad it shows, but what about when you are really really sad, what then? I am not sure but I just don't know how to show.
Today marks the zenith of depths to my abnormal life. In an utterly bizarre manner I found out that my laptop battery has drained out completely and again it has come to a time where I might have to replace the battery altogether. That would mean shelling out of another 5000 bucks. There are so many things running in my mind and first and foremost thing is "Why me?". Was I duped? Was it how the HP batteries are meant to be. Last exactly a year before it goes pfff. I wouldn't mind using the laptop with the power plugged in. It is just that it starts getting heated up so unbearably hot, one can as well use it fry omelets.
Every thing I have touched upon have turned to dust. Not glorious kinda way but literally my choices of things have started hurting me big time. Right from my annual specs (spent 12k in 4 years), a worthless bike, a wonderful lost camera, a non stop pressure cooker laptop to my worthless job. Yes, I just don't get tired saying it - a worthless job. I guess I can proudly I am one of those wierdos working for a company which pays less than the formal company. What kind of incentive is that?
In all these aspects there is always the longing of better one, never satisfied with the one I have. IF only I could have tested and bought Unicorn, If only I didn't lose my camera, If only I could have regained my specs, If only I could have bought any damn laptop like Dell, Lenovo or anything other than HP, if only I could have stuck a little longer at Satyam, IF...IF..
The only two good remaining assets for me are my two precious hard disks and one lovely pristine IPod running its glorious 4th year. Hope they don't meet any bad fate. Fingers crossed.
Actually Just as I read this , i am feeling good. Some damn post for otherwise useless life with no goddamn goal to look at or the zeal to work at it..Depressing really..Time for DORK.
Today marks the zenith of depths to my abnormal life. In an utterly bizarre manner I found out that my laptop battery has drained out completely and again it has come to a time where I might have to replace the battery altogether. That would mean shelling out of another 5000 bucks. There are so many things running in my mind and first and foremost thing is "Why me?". Was I duped? Was it how the HP batteries are meant to be. Last exactly a year before it goes pfff. I wouldn't mind using the laptop with the power plugged in. It is just that it starts getting heated up so unbearably hot, one can as well use it fry omelets.
Every thing I have touched upon have turned to dust. Not glorious kinda way but literally my choices of things have started hurting me big time. Right from my annual specs (spent 12k in 4 years), a worthless bike, a wonderful lost camera, a non stop pressure cooker laptop to my worthless job. Yes, I just don't get tired saying it - a worthless job. I guess I can proudly I am one of those wierdos working for a company which pays less than the formal company. What kind of incentive is that?
In all these aspects there is always the longing of better one, never satisfied with the one I have. IF only I could have tested and bought Unicorn, If only I didn't lose my camera, If only I could have regained my specs, If only I could have bought any damn laptop like Dell, Lenovo or anything other than HP, if only I could have stuck a little longer at Satyam, IF...IF..
The only two good remaining assets for me are my two precious hard disks and one lovely pristine IPod running its glorious 4th year. Hope they don't meet any bad fate. Fingers crossed.
Actually Just as I read this , i am feeling good. Some damn post for otherwise useless life with no goddamn goal to look at or the zeal to work at it..Depressing really..Time for DORK.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Regaining my senses - I
Taking off from where I started off, I have successfully been able to steer clear from my distractions for one whole week without
- Watching movies
- Transferring movies
- Downloading movies (I confess I dettered a little by downloading 'Kerala Cafe' for Nikmo. I still achieved my major objective though of not spending enormous amount of time digging for the next movie to download.)
- All of the above intermixed.
It hasn't given me satisfaction yet, as my objective of spending quality time with books or blogs hasn't been truly realized. My work at office too was partly the reason as of late I have been coming back home late in the night. That also explains the 'Part I' of this post.
Watch out for part -II.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Vrooming on the wrong roads
Right from the time I have come to Hyderabad I have had a very bad feeling about so many aspects - the job, the room, the cafeteria, the Axis bank and ego clashes with my peers. It took over a month to get over it and my focus on weight loss contributed significantly in shifting my forgivings.
Of all things that sucked the most was the time when I had to pay my HSBC bills. It so happens all of a sudden all top banks or maybe all banks in general have decided to remove the service of paying credit card bills online excepting their own. Finding a guy with HSBC savings account would be like finding fish in air. I know comparison sucks big time, so was my experience. I phoned at least 10 of the people I know to find some way, even if it involves extra 100 bucks payment. Tough luck.
With 1 day left for payment, I set off from work all the way from Hi-Tech city to Raj Bhavan road. That's almost 45 minutes journey in the hot scorching sun bearing the chaotic traffic. This has been the case for the last 3 months. Thats a productive loss of 4 and a half man hours for the company. ( not that I care so much to the detail) but the exhaustion, tiredness, helplessness and most importantly the frustration of not being able to doing things really hit me hard.
Of course, there are better ways of handling things-through cheques, friends or your own. For me though that was like giving up my way of life and moving on to entirely new territory. It might sound silly but its true. I hate change or adapting to change. Life had been so much simple for almost three years with ICICI or Citi and suddenly its just been snatched. Sadly the option of opting for Axis bank card necissitates a wait of 1 year. Screw Axis!
This is the 4th month running and I am quite comfortably placed to pay the bill. I have about 12 days in hand to implement one of the most easieset payment options of door to door cheque delivery (a service provided to few niche cities, Hyerabad being one such.) I am all gung ho for it and literally waiting to write my cheque off.
Well that was about my lousy journey to pay the lousy bill. What did prompt me though to write this up was my today's unneccesary adventure to Prasads for selling the unncessarily booked tickets for unnecassarily hasty oversite of my decision that anything would be possible. Its a long story, ain't got all night to write that. To cut it short, I wasted another 3 hours in my painful journeying ordeal.
In conclusion-
Total time wasted - 7 1/2 hours
Total Unnecessary Distance Covered- 110 Kms
Total Fuel - 2 Lts
Amount of frustration endured - Priceless.
There are definitely somethings money can't buy and no mastercard is not there every time either! I fervently hope better sense prevail and get me vroooming on the right roads.
Of all things that sucked the most was the time when I had to pay my HSBC bills. It so happens all of a sudden all top banks or maybe all banks in general have decided to remove the service of paying credit card bills online excepting their own. Finding a guy with HSBC savings account would be like finding fish in air. I know comparison sucks big time, so was my experience. I phoned at least 10 of the people I know to find some way, even if it involves extra 100 bucks payment. Tough luck.
With 1 day left for payment, I set off from work all the way from Hi-Tech city to Raj Bhavan road. That's almost 45 minutes journey in the hot scorching sun bearing the chaotic traffic. This has been the case for the last 3 months. Thats a productive loss of 4 and a half man hours for the company. ( not that I care so much to the detail) but the exhaustion, tiredness, helplessness and most importantly the frustration of not being able to doing things really hit me hard.
Of course, there are better ways of handling things-through cheques, friends or your own. For me though that was like giving up my way of life and moving on to entirely new territory. It might sound silly but its true. I hate change or adapting to change. Life had been so much simple for almost three years with ICICI or Citi and suddenly its just been snatched. Sadly the option of opting for Axis bank card necissitates a wait of 1 year. Screw Axis!
This is the 4th month running and I am quite comfortably placed to pay the bill. I have about 12 days in hand to implement one of the most easieset payment options of door to door cheque delivery (a service provided to few niche cities, Hyerabad being one such.) I am all gung ho for it and literally waiting to write my cheque off.
Well that was about my lousy journey to pay the lousy bill. What did prompt me though to write this up was my today's unneccesary adventure to Prasads for selling the unncessarily booked tickets for unnecassarily hasty oversite of my decision that anything would be possible. Its a long story, ain't got all night to write that. To cut it short, I wasted another 3 hours in my painful journeying ordeal.
In conclusion-
Total time wasted - 7 1/2 hours
Total Unnecessary Distance Covered- 110 Kms
Total Fuel - 2 Lts
Amount of frustration endured - Priceless.
There are definitely somethings money can't buy and no mastercard is not there every time either! I fervently hope better sense prevail and get me vroooming on the right roads.
Monday, February 15, 2010
What's wrong with me?
I guess I am losing it. I couldn't even type my blogsite write for three times straight causing a slight panic attack, wondering if maybe, I mean may-be, I might have accidentally deleted my blog. Luckily I didn't. Just having finished watching one of the best House episodes of all time, I just for the life of me can't understand the way my life is turning out to be.
My addiction to movies is taking such a heavy toll that I am not able to concentrate or give in anything more than 0% to my life's priorities be it my work (the topmost), my aim (MS In US part) or my hobbies. The real ones, the ones that transport me to an imaginary world and make me feel to hug myself with joy. Books and blogs truly have always been my forte, something I did so naturally that I didn't need such rude awakening at times like 3:30 A.M. in the morning! Actually, I am really angry at myself and the only thing I can lay a finger on are movies and nothing but the movies.
Ever since I am done with completing at least 4 of my applications I started falling back on to movies as if the world is going to end if I don't complete my stack of unseen (which by the way are aplenty) movies. This process involves searching my goddamn hard disk, checking for the movies, only realizing that the last downloaded movies were somehow have been just for the record which pissess me off to no end. What do I do? I download the new ones which again are following the same pattern. Adding more heat to my already burnt up backside, I have bought a new hard disk (a real cutie) and every minute from my lappie on time to lappie off time, there are gazillion permutations and combinations of things that my darn mind calculates by itself to get things straightened up.
For staters, should I move the animation ones from old to new? Should I segregate the movies again in the same way as the old pattern? Should I not search each movie from IMDB, get the genres, create the appropriate folder and rearrange? When should I make an inventory of the movies-snapshot, program (exe), manual? How best can I share and achive the glory ("Oh-my-god do you really have all these movies? What are you? Why don't you open a library man?") ? Trust me folks, you find a guy/girl with over 750 gig of movies and stuff, the last thing I mentioned here, goes right in his brain all the time and you just don't know the kicks we get with such awe.
The last question I want throw up to the house - How can some of you guys be so disorganized and stupid to keep dumping the movies in folders and files in whatever shape they are in (American.Beauty.DVDRip.Xvid-Tornado[WT], 17 Again (2009) [DvdRip] [Xvid] {1337x}-Noir- WTH?). Anyways such stupididty puts extra work on me and that little extra means a lot in my mind. Today for instance I got a hard disk from Murali (nikmo's friend) and I spent almost half an hour renaming, reorganizing, rechecking, relabeling and finally dumping onto my hard disk. Not good, not good at all!
Oh God! Someone please help me. Save me from this addiciton, I want my life back. I want some quality time, not some stupid praises. Okay, here is the time the big oath comes out - I on this blog on this very post promise I will not watch any movie till this weekend on my laptop, nor involve myself in downloading or organizing or talking anything about a movie at all! Period.
Phew, That feels good. I hope I succeed. Adios.
My addiction to movies is taking such a heavy toll that I am not able to concentrate or give in anything more than 0% to my life's priorities be it my work (the topmost), my aim (MS In US part) or my hobbies. The real ones, the ones that transport me to an imaginary world and make me feel to hug myself with joy. Books and blogs truly have always been my forte, something I did so naturally that I didn't need such rude awakening at times like 3:30 A.M. in the morning! Actually, I am really angry at myself and the only thing I can lay a finger on are movies and nothing but the movies.
Ever since I am done with completing at least 4 of my applications I started falling back on to movies as if the world is going to end if I don't complete my stack of unseen (which by the way are aplenty) movies. This process involves searching my goddamn hard disk, checking for the movies, only realizing that the last downloaded movies were somehow have been just for the record which pissess me off to no end. What do I do? I download the new ones which again are following the same pattern. Adding more heat to my already burnt up backside, I have bought a new hard disk (a real cutie) and every minute from my lappie on time to lappie off time, there are gazillion permutations and combinations of things that my darn mind calculates by itself to get things straightened up.
For staters, should I move the animation ones from old to new? Should I segregate the movies again in the same way as the old pattern? Should I not search each movie from IMDB, get the genres, create the appropriate folder and rearrange? When should I make an inventory of the movies-snapshot, program (exe), manual? How best can I share and achive the glory ("Oh-my-god do you really have all these movies? What are you? Why don't you open a library man?") ? Trust me folks, you find a guy/girl with over 750 gig of movies and stuff, the last thing I mentioned here, goes right in his brain all the time and you just don't know the kicks we get with such awe.
The last question I want throw up to the house - How can some of you guys be so disorganized and stupid to keep dumping the movies in folders and files in whatever shape they are in (American.Beauty.DVDRip.Xvid-Tornado[WT], 17 Again (2009) [DvdRip] [Xvid] {1337x}-Noir- WTH?). Anyways such stupididty puts extra work on me and that little extra means a lot in my mind. Today for instance I got a hard disk from Murali (nikmo's friend) and I spent almost half an hour renaming, reorganizing, rechecking, relabeling and finally dumping onto my hard disk. Not good, not good at all!
Oh God! Someone please help me. Save me from this addiciton, I want my life back. I want some quality time, not some stupid praises. Okay, here is the time the big oath comes out - I on this blog on this very post promise I will not watch any movie till this weekend on my laptop, nor involve myself in downloading or organizing or talking anything about a movie at all! Period.
Phew, That feels good. I hope I succeed. Adios.
Friday, September 04, 2009
'KAMINEY' - Utterly ruthless, beware
Dhan ta naaaaaaa...ta na nana...Naa, it aint' the movie folks. 'KAMINEY' is the name I have given for my cricket team part of the EPL (Elsevier Premier League) contest. There were 4 teams in all and we bagged the 3rd place. An entirely different matter altogether. :)
As part of the team some of the things demanded were dress code, anthem and a team logo. In purusit of which I have touched upon one of the most toughest and highest form of creative form of writing, the one which demands hell of a patience and most imaginative minds. This in no way is a self-trumpet of my achievement (might be partly) but I sincerely feel writing poems is the most difficult task and with this small piece I hope I might try it again...Without much ado, here it goes -
The Anthem/Threat (You Decide) -
They call us the brutes...
Not Having an iota of a clue...
Tortured and tethered...
Rugged and haggard...
Eternally restless and dying with thirst...
Winning with Vengence...the only salvation!
Naam hai KAMINEY...
Dhan ta naaaaaaaaaaaaa....
And I proudly present our team Logo -
P.S. - Have already received good number of flak for using heavy words. So apart from that any general comments, I highly welcome it. And yeah, the lack of rhyming is done too
As part of the team some of the things demanded were dress code, anthem and a team logo. In purusit of which I have touched upon one of the most toughest and highest form of creative form of writing, the one which demands hell of a patience and most imaginative minds. This in no way is a self-trumpet of my achievement (might be partly) but I sincerely feel writing poems is the most difficult task and with this small piece I hope I might try it again...Without much ado, here it goes -
The Anthem/Threat (You Decide) -
They call us the brutes...
Not Having an iota of a clue...
Tortured and tethered...
Rugged and haggard...
Eternally restless and dying with thirst...
Winning with Vengence...the only salvation!
Naam hai KAMINEY...
Dhan ta naaaaaaaaaaaaa....
And I proudly present our team Logo -
P.S. - Have already received good number of flak for using heavy words. So apart from that any general comments, I highly welcome it. And yeah, the lack of rhyming is done too
Thursday, September 03, 2009
Namo-namaha
2 months back, Hari had called me up and he said "Dude, suggest some team names for cricket" and then I was like "Ok, give me sometime.". That time went on from 10 minutes to an hour to the whole day and the next day and went on over months. By that time these guys finished their game and the team had already bagged 6th place out of 84 teams.
The point is it's becoming so hard to come out with jazzy names. Be it for your signin name for forums, social websites, team names, siggies, so many. Personally there are only two that I could muster - aquinn_21, yossarain(ya I know, it's yossarian and not yossarain). The former stuck with me for long time and was a bit popular too among folks at my college. Popular as in people know who the Quinn is kind. It's also my yahoo ID and goes without saying the period when it became popular and subsequently vanished into oblivion with G coming up. It sounded funky, looks cool and that's it.
Blog came along right at the end of 4-1 or beginning, not sure. Fresh out of Catch-22, one of the most profound books giving an insight into what a war really is about, gave rise to my next psuedo-name yossarain - a perfectly safe and unique name. I used it for all the sites to login from then on. Days went by and it was some article I read I realized the fad of having such names is a passe and it is high time we start valuing our own names. So true, indeed. That's our identity and it is YOU after all. No wonder Facebook looks so professional than Orkut with what some names like #~~@#$% or such kind just for the heck of it.
Yet, the need of a pseudo identity which means something, a creative YOU persisted. I confess I am still on the tryouts for good ones. So going back to the team names, I was literally stuck for sometime zeroing on one. I googled for names, got a list and it wasn't really what I was looking for. The taste of Indianness is missing. I called ahem ahem Hari and asked for it. Surprisingly he had a huge list of team names in alphabets and almost all of them were trite and expressionless. Doesn't have that aggressiveness and machoism I was looking at when you are naming a team for Cricket nonetheless.
Used my own brain and here are what I came out with. -
Crickit
Kaminey
Mean Machines
The Angels
Avengers
The Dark Knights (My favorite)
Phoenecians
I know excepting for Kaminey and Crickit, everything were again the bunch of tried and tested team names. MY team on the other hand liked none of these and they didn't have any suggestions either. 'Kaminey' was unanimously voted the best by 3 different third-party candidates and that clinched the deal. It was just the right word I was looking for and I damn well knew the mystique, the roughness et all that it creates.
What followed next was an anthem and a team logo (the next post). Well, I would just like to know all ya guys/gals out there do drop in any funky cool names you can think of be it a individual or as a team and do share your experiences in naming a 'name'.
The point is it's becoming so hard to come out with jazzy names. Be it for your signin name for forums, social websites, team names, siggies, so many. Personally there are only two that I could muster - aquinn_21, yossarain(ya I know, it's yossarian and not yossarain). The former stuck with me for long time and was a bit popular too among folks at my college. Popular as in people know who the Quinn is kind. It's also my yahoo ID and goes without saying the period when it became popular and subsequently vanished into oblivion with G coming up. It sounded funky, looks cool and that's it.
Blog came along right at the end of 4-1 or beginning, not sure. Fresh out of Catch-22, one of the most profound books giving an insight into what a war really is about, gave rise to my next psuedo-name yossarain - a perfectly safe and unique name. I used it for all the sites to login from then on. Days went by and it was some article I read I realized the fad of having such names is a passe and it is high time we start valuing our own names. So true, indeed. That's our identity and it is YOU after all. No wonder Facebook looks so professional than Orkut with what some names like #~~@#$% or such kind just for the heck of it.
Yet, the need of a pseudo identity which means something, a creative YOU persisted. I confess I am still on the tryouts for good ones. So going back to the team names, I was literally stuck for sometime zeroing on one. I googled for names, got a list and it wasn't really what I was looking for. The taste of Indianness is missing. I called ahem ahem Hari and asked for it. Surprisingly he had a huge list of team names in alphabets and almost all of them were trite and expressionless. Doesn't have that aggressiveness and machoism I was looking at when you are naming a team for Cricket nonetheless.
Used my own brain and here are what I came out with. -
Crickit
Kaminey
Mean Machines
The Angels
Avengers
The Dark Knights (My favorite)
Phoenecians
I know excepting for Kaminey and Crickit, everything were again the bunch of tried and tested team names. MY team on the other hand liked none of these and they didn't have any suggestions either. 'Kaminey' was unanimously voted the best by 3 different third-party candidates and that clinched the deal. It was just the right word I was looking for and I damn well knew the mystique, the roughness et all that it creates.
What followed next was an anthem and a team logo (the next post). Well, I would just like to know all ya guys/gals out there do drop in any funky cool names you can think of be it a individual or as a team and do share your experiences in naming a 'name'.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Worst Poem...No Mood
Life is strange
Have heck of things to do
Write SOP
No Mood
Write Sharepoint Intro
No Mood
Write Maghadeera review
No Mood
Search for Universities Financial status
No Mood
The 8 hours at office
No Mood
This is one of the most stupidest attempt at poetry and I suck at it. I don't care. I am having absolutely no mood to do anything at all! what the heck is wrong with me..seriously I am getting sick. I gotta be serious. No time left at all and I don't even know what LOR's my prof's or the PM's need to help me with. Hopefully tomorrow morning 6'0 clock, things should be clear
Have heck of things to do
Write SOP
No Mood
Write Sharepoint Intro
No Mood
Write Maghadeera review
No Mood
Search for Universities Financial status
No Mood
The 8 hours at office
No Mood
This is one of the most stupidest attempt at poetry and I suck at it. I don't care. I am having absolutely no mood to do anything at all! what the heck is wrong with me..seriously I am getting sick. I gotta be serious. No time left at all and I don't even know what LOR's my prof's or the PM's need to help me with. Hopefully tomorrow morning 6'0 clock, things should be clear
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